One example of why you’d want a bf/gf

I think that the one thing that distinguishes a relationship (besides honesty, that should be the reason to go into a relationship) is dedication and devotion.  To many people, being single is a good thing, and I think people tend to enjoy the single life after one or some failed or hard and confusing relationships.  But what happens when you really need someone right then and there, right now, and there's no one to run to?
When I'm being crushed by subways and torn apart by dinosaurs (I know, weird combo,) who can I call up real quick to make 'em go away?  Who's gonna be there for me and whisper, "it was just a dream"?  I'm trying to enjoy the single life just like everyone else, but everything has a downside, and this is it, not having someone to run to, to make it all go away and say, "I love you."
I'm gonna go back to bed now.  I better not have another painful awakening again because if I do I just might run off a cliff!

Summer Mischief All Alone

So I snuck out of the house for the very first time tonight.  Prior to that, I had an enjoyable, chill 4th of July, even though my friend was unintentionally cock-blocking all the girls I was flirting with, and he does that every single time!  I ended the night with a few games of online pool and VERY small talk with a much needed friend.  I originally wanted to jump into my friend's pool and get wet (duh) in the summer evening cool, but instead I had to go in my jacuzzi.  Afterward, I snuck out to the park to smoke a cigar and listen to some music. 
Where is summer going for me?

......  =/

Summer Resolutions/To Do

Summer Resolutions/To Do List (exp. Jan 2009)
Paul S Skinner

Daily
- Study/Do homework to do well on final
- Spend the day with a girl at least once every week
- Find something special to do every new day
- Get more contacts/phone numbers
- Socialize outside of friend circle
- Talk to Cheesecake
- Keep room clean
- Apply rash ointment
- Take Chris's place while he is gone

Goals
- Get a girlfriend
- Become best friends/boyfriend-girlfriend with Cheesecake
- Have at least thirty girls' phone numbers/screen names
- Have at least fifty girls' phone numbers/screen names
- Have posted one-hundred blogs
- Get rid of rash

Tasks
- Register for classes
- Make appointment for MAPT
- Find out when Cheesecake is in Hawaii
- Pay off parking tickets
- File extension for traffic violation
- Sign up for traffic school
- Get Wells Fargo account number and check balance
- Fix car
- Plan out/pay for Yosemite trip
- Get a techno party together (patio theme, yeah, maybe?)
- Hang out with Shane
- Buy Mixcraft
- Finish SMG OST
- Complete my first recorded CD
- Organize vinals
- Pay dad month of June
- Pay dad month of July
- Pay dad month of August

Drunk Love

When love is confusing, it's kind of like getting drunk.  Yeah, drinking is fun, when you are drunk, you feel like you have the whole world, you feel like the best, everything feels amazing, kind of like love.  But when you have too much to drink, it's an overwhelming feeling of nausia, confusion, dizziness, and everything seems to be out of control!  Now that you're too drunk, and you seem incomplete, and you're taking a piss every fifteen minutes, you have some more to drink because the previous drinks, all the way down to the very first drink, seem to have left you, the ones you've been pissin' off, and because they have left you, you need something else, and more of it to satisfy your satisfaction, your love.  Very soon you're tripping balls, and all you ever wish for is the way it felt during the very first drink, one love, one brew (or liquor.)  You throw up, and all of that time you put into all of those other drinks, wasted, out in the gutter, and as you look at your wasted night, your wasted love, you have a heavy hang over, and you are very lonely,  you regret everything, and all you ever wanted was to go back, go back in time, and feel like the way you felt with your first drink.  What's the worst part, tripping balls, or the cold and lonely hangover.  My love, I could handle being drunk, I have the guts, but this hangover is killing me.  I love you, and if I can't stay with you, I'm just going to get drunk off my ass next weekend.  Please stay with me.  Will you be my one drink for the night?

Don't dream, don't EVER dream.

Just do what you can do.

Doubt...

There are many difficulties in life.  One of the hardest things in life for me is doubt.  Many people who know me think I am a 100% happy-go-lucky positive guy.  Don't get me wrong, I am.  However, a lot of the time, I am very doubtful, and I have been like this far too long in the past.  For all of those who don't see this, I try to hide it, I'll be positive anyway.  There is always some kind of doubt in my mind, it's there right now.  There are a few things I am beginning to doubt, but I will not tell you because you know me as the guy who always has a positive outlook in life, and I don't want to change that.  Sometimes they are little things: right now, one thing is bugging me that is little, I think, I hope, I doubt...  Sometimes they are big: another doubt is big for me right now, and there is only one person who knows about it, besides me, God, and my professor.  My advice to my fellow blog readers, [cricket noises] don't doubt anything in life.  Always look for the best, fuck the worst, don't regret anything, and if you do, fix it right then and there.  If school is bugging you and you are doubting where you are going in life, do what it is you want to do and dig out of the hole you are in right now.  If you are learning a second language and you doubt yourself, don't; speak that language everyday, and who cares if you say something wrong, you only learn from your mistakes, your mistakes do not hurt you.  If there is a boy or a girl you like and you doubt how he or she feels about you, stop that now and keep this mentallity, "he/she wants you right now and you are gonna have him/her tonight!"  Doubt is a painful thing, and living with it only makes life a boring hell.  Make the best of life right now and everyday, before it is too late.

Life as Paul Skinner

Everyone says that I see the glass half full as apposed to half empty...



But I am quite aware that the glass contains 50% air and 50% liquid!